cross-country.

Today was... well tiring. Hahah. that's all

i can describe. :P Im currently blogging

immediately after i reach home. LOL. The 

distance of the merentas desa this year seems

shorter than usual. I reached the finish line 

10min late. ==

Kay, enough for merentas desa already. I'm

too disappointed to talk about it. :/ 

Okay. Nothing much to blog about actually.

Bet that you guys wouldn't wanna read 

about my "feelings". Hahah. Then you can 

skip the following part. xD

The thought of you never left my mind. Never

did. remember during the holidays, we texted

like actual friends, I missed those times. I 

was quite touched that you answered my call at 

3am that morning, cos you were the only person

i could think of at the moment to help me. 

Few days before that, you told me you still 

liked me. That time, i was infatuated over 

someone else. I dare not tell you i like you too,

that was the biggest mistake i've made this year.

i should've told you i like you too. ): But i was

afraid. Cos you said we might get back AFTER

pmr. What if, what if, you fall in love with someone 

else after pmr? I couldn't bear to get hurt again.

I dont expect that you like me now. I just want

things to be like how it was before US, before

all the pain and grief. When we were still friends.

Texting, joking, talking crap in school. I miss you.

I miss you like hell. Without you in my life, its

really really painful. :/ When would i ever build the

courage to tell you that i've always liked you, never 

did forget you. haih. PMR. CONCENTRATE.. ><

Bye. That's all for this post. Sorry for all the emo

stuff. 

Valentine's Day.

Hey peeps. (: Tomorrow's Valentine's Day.
Once again, congrats to those who have a
special someone to spend it with them. Cherish
the moments! :D For those who don't have a
special someone, Its;s okay. don't get upset.
Cos Valentine's day can still be spent with your
family and friends. :D


For those who are STILL scratching their
scalp off trying to think of something special
to do for your other half, you'd better hurry.
Its just a few more hours till deadline. ;DDD


Valentine's Day is just round the corner, all
i can think about is you. Why are you stuck in
my mind? I just cannot bear to see you with your
Valentine's on Monday if you happen to have
one. I'm so selfish. I know you don't read this.
But i just couldn't squeeze out even an ounce of
courage to tell you i still like you. I hope she's
really the one for you. I hope you can be happy.
No matter how much i want you to be my Valentine,
i know you want her to be yours. And i cannot say
anything more.


Nowadays you don't even say hi to me anymore,
am i just over-reacting that you don't say hi?
Everytime you happen to come across me, you
run past me. You're doing that cause' you don't
wanna look at me. I know. :/ Even though you
don't read this, i hope you have a great Valentine's
Day.


That's all. Bye. (:

don't waste the pretty.

Hello. curi curi online. :P
hahah. updates. (:
new kid. Khai Jieq. I call him Khai Jack.
Cos he annoys me by calling me my chinese name
Jia Qi. So we're even now. (: Aminuddin Baki.
Wong K. K.'s fav school. == we have mutual friends!
LOL.


Shea's party on friday evening. ATTENDING! (:
Gonna have fun. :D
Did my interact signature drive. Printing it now.
i show you how pretty it is. LOL.

Ed-Board one on the way. Still in progress. (:

Getting new phone. Probably E72. :D

Buh-bye. :D

don't matter.

Hello! (: i won't be online except friday nights and saturday
when school reopens. >< Mum is gonna take away my lappie.
Haih. Back to the busy old days. :/ im gonna miss my lappie.


Anyways, Valentine's Day is coming. Congrats to all of you
who already have a Valentine to celebrate Valentine's Day.
Well, for me.. I'm gonna celebrate this year's Valentine's
being single. (:


That's all. Till next time. Sorry im not posting pics in this
post. ): Byee. :D

breakeven.

I cried after seeing this. This is what i call a real man.
Being a man is not about drinking beer or building biceps.
Being a man is giving your word and even if facing tough
challenges, a real man wouldn't back down. Most importantly,
a real man will stand by his other half no matter what happens.

My respects to Chris.

all she knows.

I clearly told myself i already have NO FEELINGS
for you at all now. And at that point of time, i was sure
of my statement. I was sure that was what i was feeling.
Why am i having doubts now? Nowadays, the thoughts
of you have been increasing. Social networks' fault? ):
I don't wanna fall for you all over again. Cos there's no
use in doing that. I just know it. You already have the
girl of your dreams. She's pretty, smart, talented, friendly.
I can NEVER be compared to her. She's probably
every guy's dream girl. At this point of time, some would
say, "i wish i'd appreciated every single moment i had
with him. But instead i took it for granted." Well, its soooo
long ago already. And i dare say that i DID appreciate
every moment we had. EVERY. Every single time you
pass by, my heart aches a bit. I was thinking, how nice it'd
be if you passed by to see me. Well, obviously i know
that it wasnt for me. Its for her. I'm happy for her you know?
A guy can love her so much for so long, without even
having to be with her as a couple.


On the other hand, YOU. Why are there more explanations
to come after my heartbreak? Why are there more doubts
that you're doing this for my own good? WHY? Can't it
be just what i assumed it was? That you just lost interest
in me and fell for someone else? Why do all the possible
reasons have to pop up just when im starting to get over it?
WHY? WHY? WHY? D: ah. when he said, maybe you
could get feedback from him on what you might have done.
People are sometimes afraid. Afraid of the truth. Cos the
truth is sometimes ugly. Sometimes i really hate honesty. It
sucks having to tell the truth. ): Haih. i really don't wanna know
what did i do. But at the same time i do wanna know. GOSH.
I'm so confused right now. im losing myself. I just gotta
pull myself together and go on with my life. Cos it's PMR
year. i CANNOT be thinking about all these.


 Life is never easy. Challenges will come eventually. But
they're not there to destroy you cos they're there to build
you into a stronger, more independant person. That part
was said to me by a friend. It was edited by me tho. My
friend. Young but knowledgeable. Zachary Lau. Thank
you for the quote. (:


Oh. And one more thing, i find that some guys are
really stupid. Dont they know that breaking up thinking
that it's for our own good is just the act of plain stupidity?
They think that maybe without them we can concentrate
more on our studies, no distraction right? WRONG.
The break up is a bigger distraction than being in love.
Maybe after the getting-over we'd be able to concentrate.
But all the doubts have already caused enough distruction.
STUPID GUYS. :/


Anyways, gotta go have my beauty bath now. If you're
wondering if i'm okay or not? thanks for caring, i'm fine.
For now. (: Unless one day you see me suddenly wanting
to go to the KL tower, you'd know that im not alright.
So... Goodbye! Till next post. (:

pray.

Yan Hui, Wai Lee, Ying Chuan. You guys sooooo do not
own this song!! >:( Becca and i are so gonna own this one
day. ;DDDDDDDDDDD

summertime.

GAH. i was suppose top have a thousand and one

photos to be uploaded. at least that was what i planned 

to do. Unfortunately, my cam SCREWED UP. grrr.

Now i have the best excuse to get my dad to buy me 

a new DSLR cam. :D (preferably Nikon) :P

Okay so, last night was Chinese New Year's Eve,

so my family and i, went to have reunion dinner at KL.

OMG. The bill was soooooo colourful. LOL. There's

like eight of us, and the bill was this, RM 8**++

GOSH. i didnt know at all until i went into the car and 

saw the receipt lying on the seat. :S

Anyways, food was AWESOME. :D (duh, it was close

to RM1000) LOL, but the ambiance, SUCKED. They 

wantedf to fit more tables, the seats between our table

and the next was soooo close, and i was "lucky" enough

to choose the borderline seat. People kept passing thru 

that cramped space NON STOP throughout the WHOLE

NIGHT. Literally, i felt like standing up, shouting at the

stupid waitresses to find another spot to freaking pass thru.

I couldn't have my dinner with a single minute of peace kay.

):

Next, before going into the restaurant, i saw the most 

surprising sight. I saw Ashley Jacelyn and her family! 

LOL. Soo cool. hahah. Obviously, she looked stunning as

usual. ;D Im so sorry i don't have a camwhore picture

of us, cos both of us forgotten to take pictures. : / Oh. 

when i was about to leave, i went to say goodbye to her and 

her family. So funny lah her dad. Uncle looked so confused. 

He totally had the "who's that?" face. hahahah. 

Anyways, i wasnt able to attend a street party at KL there

cos mum didnt let. So dad and all my older cousins and uncles 

went. This morning, my dad go chuan me with the pictures he 

took at the party. = = GOT CUTE GUYS YOU KNOW?!!!

hmmph. anyway, since i didnt go to the party, i came home

and skyped Isaac Ho instead! (:

Snapshots! :D

ahahah. i was laughing so badly! 

he played Marry You on his guitar and sang

it! Sooo nice! it was the slower version of it. (:

And then he intro me to his mum, younger sister,

and elder sister. (: 

Then after awhile of playing the song,

his mum didnt like the noise i think, so he stopped.

Oh well, it was nice while it lasted. :D

Oh we made funny faces too. ;DDDD

actually i started it. LOL.

best part!

LOL, you belum see mine yet. 

hahah. i didnt snapshot mine. ahahahaha.

xD

Anyways, he didnt change a bit. still the

same old nice guy i first met on november

last year. :D

that's all. bye! (:

count on me.

Happy Chinese New Year, everyone! (:

rocketeeer.

currently doing this. ;D

random shiz. :D

my wallpaper. ;D

irreplaceable.

Hello! This is a picture post, with some captions. 

So, enjoy! (:

New year's Eve night. 

My niece! She's sooooo cute. ;D

This is her brother. So cute also. hahah.

You know when i said girl, take picture, she'll

automatically do this pose. hahahah. so cute! ;D

Reunion dinner at Low Family. (:

Eyer... Come on lah. gotta admit. he's sooooooo

freaking cute... :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

LOL. the == face. 

New Year's first few hours.

Clubbing babeh! ;D

At this place. opposite of low family house. :D

Our AWESOME bartender for the night.

He's so nice! he teach me how to make margarita,

then i drank it. ahahah.

Know why i get to go behind there? Cos im awesome. ;)

Look at all the alchohol!!! ;DDDDD

VODKA! (:

Gin and tonics. >:D

These are liqours. Oh yeah. so many of em'

cousin's wife and sis. (:

My margarita!! Soooo nice. 

i know i look weird. ==

That morning, we left the bar at 4.30am. :D

Lunch with cousins.

Uncle and aunt. (:

My awesome cousin brother. 16. we have

mutual friends!! LOL.

Went to aunt's sister's hse too visit cousins. :D

hahahahahah. good times. (:

aaron. fiddling with the cam. 

Girl next to me is Hannah. she's sooooo fun! LOL.

playing PSP. so lame. ==

Next morning at the airport, sending them off to Aussie land. :(

Their childhood friend, jia ming came to send them

off too. how nice. :')

Mitch and andrew. :D

Group picture! :D

My new hobby!

Baking cookies!!!! YAY!

Day out to KL for Sivic.

The old KL high court. (:

The huge clock, the dark sky. ):

an ant bit chelsea's leg. another masalah to state! ;D

we wanted to pull a prank on the late comers.

damn phailed. LOL.

(there's a ghost between Jiayun and Carmen. LOL)

textile museum! :D

OMG. this is hillarious. LOL. Modesty disc.

Modesty is similar to humble. heheheheh, >:)

Wong K. K. ;D

I love this picture. Jia Yun looks so cute! ;)

traffic light! :D

Reunion dinner with family. (:

Yesterday. Battleplan. STUDY.

Sejarah. (:

obviously i needed my specs, im like blind w/out it. 

My notebook! (:

Then i needed all my colour source! :D

ohhh, then temptations came.

who could ever resist Chocolate Indulgence.

in less than 2min.

altogether after 3min.

Okay. back to studying.

my mindmaps. (:

did you guys see ming ser's blog post?

Okay. this is cool.

it looks like a normal note paper.

but actually is like transclucent.

See? i can vandalise my note book without

ruining my notes. ahah.

then at night, mum made cookies. :D

yumm.

finally into the oven.

Then in the evening, i skyped Ming Ser.

At night i skype. Sze Yii, till 2.30am. LOL.

Well, honestly, i don't wanna be single on Valentines' Day.

But, what can i do about it? People keep going, "you have us

(friends) wert." and i'll go like. uh-huh. LOL. haih. I've met

so many jerks and a.holes, i think i do deserve a miracle don't i?

): haih. that's all for this post. Currently skyping Wai Lee, Yan

Hui, Christopher and Rui Zhi. Bye. (:

Tiffany signing off.